This is when it all changed

The life and death of this young woman in my heart had changed me forever. It was not through her that I would change, but it would be through the decisions made by people for me afterwards that would change me forever. Before I had met this young woman, I was a very devout Catholic, and, in my eyes today, stuck and comfortable in the skin that I was in. I thought that the third time would be the charm for me. For a while, it actually worked. I thought that i was doing everything right, but I was actually doing everything wrong, and it was told to me many times that I was doing so. It all changed one day. On that day, the friendship died, and in many ways, a piece of me died as well. I knew that things would never be the same on that Summer day in 2010.

The decisions that followed would change my mindset completely. Many things happened to me after that time, but the most impactful thing would be my ban from Church activities for a number of months. When I finally went back in January of 2011, people didn’t treat me the same and I felt like I was out of place in the very same group of people that had changed my life a few years before. I did not intend for it to happen, but the universe has a funny way of changing a seemingly negative thing in my life to a very positive thing in my life.

If it was not for that time that I had spent with Kelly, who remains one of the most influential people in my life, I would not have thought about joining the Mormon Church in 2011, gone to college in such a state, decided to write a book, and get to the point that I am at today. It was a pivotal point in my life, and although the pain from that time is real, I took the most of that pain and I was able to understand the world in a better light, which is the true beginnings of what the premise of my book is about.